"Oh
I know
Like can you see how stupid I am now
To let the most prettiest girl in the world go?"
Jarran said this on MSN subconsciously. Hahaha.
In the worst possible mood. Don't ask, only I shall know. English periods today were epic, making fun of Thiha was funnier. Jia Li pissed me off to the maximum today, I fucking swear I'm going to change seats, even if I sit alone in some god forsaken corner of the the class. Where I can cry in peace whenever I want, where I can laugh and no one can hear me, where I can just die and let archaeologists discover me when CCKSS is demolished. Alone. That's how I feel. Separated, different. Like I'm a bean among a kilo of rice. :/ Sometimes I can feel myself being annoying. I stumble on my words because I am that confused.
I don't know, but for one thing I'm sure, I've moved on. I hope I wake up early tomorrow for one. :/ Sigh. Today sucked. But today was the day I finally realized things. Doors that were once locked had their knobs turning free, their hinges swinging open for me. I see light in my life and although it's blinding and it hurts, but that's the truth. Nothing is really nice. This is the furthest we've been, and the furthest we can go. I hope I can get the exams over and done with. I read a childrens' book on Muay Thai (I even read the ABC's of Singapore, Busing Brewster... they're all picture books, by the way). Apparently you use your 'eight limbs' in Muay Thai. And your heels don't touch the ground. Fucking awesome, leg muscles. Hahaha. Now... I hope I can really go, and not let speech flow and let nothing be done. Have to go now, hopefully the days that I lead from now onward are worth being excited for. A few more months before Cherry graduates. Damn. :/ Never mind, there's always Facebook!
And I fucking hope Jia Li stops pissing me off.
Nowwwww, I just, say hi, walk on and dream of Europe.