Mid year's just begun, and my study plans... let's just say they're u-n-ful-fi-ll-ed. It's not that I haven't been doing anything. I have - just that at a pace for sloths. The O's are just etching each day, and every hour I spend here, in front of this keyboard, youtubing for new songs, looking at pretty girls, tweeting, and whatnot, feels like another piece of my future got burnt away. O levels. Can you believe it? This draws the line between my dreams and a compromise. Years of education, to work for this - and hopefully the next major exam I'll be taking are my A Levels, and I'll be here all over again, ranting about that when I should have my books open and pens scratching at papers. Well, I hate how I'm easily complacent...
Life, since the last post, got a little rough. What with the struggle to keep up with studying, sleeping well (I look like a zombie now), the weather, homework, and deciphering what the teacher is sputtering about every period. Like how Chemistry is Greek. But that doesn't mean I don't try to understand.
Love. I wish I never stepped into it at all, to be honest. Curiosity kills the cat, and since cats have nine lives, I wonder who'll kill me the third time. And I miss Haziq, I admit. Does he still read this? A thousand doubts. Maybe this blog is my own world now, like a book in the library that no one takes notice of.
Changed my facebook into timeline yesterday, just to reminiscence. April, to October 2011. Foolish, I was.
Sigh, I'm paranoid, but I'm doing hardly anything about it. I wish I could play back my secondary 3 life, relive it, and correct everything. Pay attention, for one, evade all sloth like characteristics, and treat love like a boiling cauldron of I-don't-know-what's-in-there-and-I-don't-wanna-know.
Gosh, sometimes I forget who I am. I'm an annoying crazy two-minded duck princess.
Who's gone to places and done things you wouldn't have believed.
Yes I've jumped off the Grand Canyon and ran across and Kenya and saved the world from mass destruction before bed time.
And I still can't get chemistry right.
warped logic,
till then.