What do I want from life. Really, I don't know.
When there's this empty space asking for an 'About Me' I falter for a moment. I want to make an impression but I don't know what. Sometimes I think if being hysterical and a clown is impressionable, or a calm and collected child. I don't want to care but I have to. I want to be a hippie, society's wasted but carefree and whenever the world fucks my life I stick my middle finger in the air and fuck 'em back. Metaphorically speaking, in that sense.
Are humans all looking for love or am I the only one who's looking for stability. The only one who's trying to fix her life when it started out already broken. My fingers are cut from the edge of papers, the tips pricked by lies and heart scarred with woe. My lungs are gasping for a sparkle of dream. But my fingers have touched hope and lived through moments. My lungs have gasped for air when a rush of happiness overcomes me. My heart has beat faster than usual. There are two sides of things and it's always your take. It never matters what others think of you - it's whether you want to accept it or just shrug it off. But believe me, opinions do matter.
Do remind yourself you're never alone in this world and you will be judged for everything you do. Society is like Simon Cowell multiplied by six billion, taking away yourself and those who believe in you. You might commit the most fatal and stupid of mistakes but there is a time when people pat your back and help you to carry on. The path isn't smooth - life isn't. Life won't be a perfect dash and words we pronounce will stutter and go too quick. Words will hurt and breaking apart is essential. Through mistakes we learn (if you don't you are stupid but are you going to listen to me) and sometimes to remain who we are, we don't change.
Sigh, all I'm saying is. Whatever you do now might hurt you or give you the best joy in the world. Albeit confusion or exhilaration - just live it through. If you want to cry, cry. Never die because you're sad. That's a tragedy. Live with hope.
And never be gullible.
Never be naive.
Believe in yourself and only trust yourself.