I sit in a wheat field and I'm lonely.


It's okay that you forget me. As long you're happy, I'm all right. If she can give you the world proper and perfect, doesn't break you, I think the tears will stop now. The sun is coming in. I'll be leaving.
Everything was awesome with you.

I never gave my heart restrictions or limits to love. Maybe I put a boundary. But sometimes in boundaries, construction isn't perfect. I doubt you can play Jenga proper without your eyes brimming with tears. So I let my boundaries fall. I left myself open to every insecurity I had. You know, sometimes I sit alone in a bus and I just get hit by a pang of fear. The one that makes you feel that you aren't loved. I can sit in class, in the canteen or with my group of friends. And suddenly I'm silent. Because I never had arms large enough or warm enough to surround me. To tell me I am loved.

I quit searching but I'm still waiting.

"I'm already out the door... I'm already out of here..."