I'm tired, of everything.
I'm exhausted no matter how much I sleep/nap. I'm tired of being a clown. I'm tired of tucking in my shirt constantly, I'm tired of bobbing my head around to see yours amongst the crowd. I'm tired of checking my phone every minute. I'm tired of looking at bus stops wishing you were there. I'm tired of being someone people laugh and mock, and in the end take for nothing. I'm tired for feeling so important in your lives and ends up but I'm another person in your lifetime. I'm tired. I'm tired of listening to people's problems and instead bottle up mine. I'm tired of being who I'm not really am. I'm tired of being an outcast, I'm tired. I'm tired of being a fool, I'm tired of falling in love. I'm tired of playing games. I'm tired of jealousy because I don't have anything to be jealous about. I'm tired of trying to impress, I'm tired. I'm tired of staring at the mirror at day and feeling inferior. I'm tired of my countless imperfections. I'm tired of trying to get your attention. I'm sick and tired of that. I'm tired of listening to the radio.
It's a drain of energy that rest can't relieve. It stays inside you and flows through your vessels. It swallows the empathy in you, eliminates others' feelings and you just live and let live. A point where being alone doesn't matter to you. You're not emo but you're just caught in a net of thought. When so much pain has dawned on you and left you into reflecting. No more.
I'm tired.
And I think I'll be tired forever.
And no, I still can't sleep.