fuck it
fuck it all.
i don't fucking know why i'm so sad today.
it's pathetic how sadness can make a perfectly happy human being wilt. just wilt into something, morph into contrast. it's funny how sadness can kill a perfectly healthy human being without skill. how it can overwhelm a muscle man, how it can harness its power and destroy anything. and it's ironic.
how? because when you fall in love you cannot blame the person.
you have to blame yourself. i never want to be a compromise - now that's pathetic. it's sadness brought upon yourself. and sometimes, i believe this is retribution for me, cupid making his mistakes.
buzz it. i'm so young and my life is plagued by heartbreaks - it's not as if i go down the streets of this minute island and fall in love with every person i set vision on.
but honestly, i'm chasing. i'm a girl and i'm the one who's running. i came into -'s life as a complete stranger. we never uttered a single word before. several glances, but never one, single, word. i can't blame -. i don't know him and he doesn't know me. and i just fell into a pit. i was doing fine. i shouldn't have went to lan. i shouldn't have sat to thiha and made him my bro. i shouldn't have started the hype with soccer. that's the irony- it's sadness brought upon myself.
i'm only broken because not only do i not know where to go,
it's because i fear seeing you with someone else. and well. humiliate myself. that happened before.
but let's face it, you like her and it's not as if you care.
i'm fine with it.
really.
i'm off to shower and wash the blood off my leg then off to na's.
today was awesome with crew & fatin + nana. but i guess my feelings just took over my mind. don't let that happen.
i saw nick yong anyway. appears to me not only is he noisy but he's a very kind & caring guy.
but noisy. real noisy.
yeah bye. post later. i guess.
i don't want shitty feedback on this post.
it's not a rage.
it's just a post. wtvr.